At the end of another year of dealing with LS I have decided to do a reflection of my progress so far. Some of the links and techniques mentioned may be of some use to fellow LS sufferers. Be warned, this will be a long "journal" of my progress through the year and shall be a little boring, even to the author.

January 2008...

My new year's resolution was to cure LS, and maybe loose some weight along the way. I accomplished the second.

The first major happening of the year was that it was the last semester of Senior year, yes, of high school. I was signed up for weight training, health and trig(which got canceled so I got stuck with teacher's aid). Anyway, weight training was one of the best classes I took, I got in shape and it was a great stress reliever.

February...

Very soon into the semester while searching this website I came across Tapping, also known as EFT or Emotional Freedom Technique. I am sure I have mentioned that to all of you (some say spammed) but I shall post the links again here. EFT was beginning to open me up, for I had closed myself off for so long. I started with "approach anxiety" and "Ex girlfriend cleanse" (which is supposed to be used on any girl that has hurt you, including your mom). I felt something happening, a loosening of the terrible fear that I had held onto for so long. Soon I was a little more free from the paralyzing anxiety of LS. I bought Magnus' E-Book and worked through a lot of issues. Tapped through so much that I can't even remember now, now that it's gone.

Here are some links:

http://www.innergametapping.com/

http://www.tapping.com/

http://www.emofree.com/

and for the advanced tapper: http://tappingcourse.com/the-tapping-course.html

March-April-May...

I find the "community" (PUA community) and begin soaking up the information like a sponge... It gets me into more trouble than it is worth. No there won't be any links.

June.

I go to DeVry, to begin summer classes, and meet whatshername...

July-Augest

I fight off any feelings for her until I cannot any longer, and tell her how I feel (this is rejection #1)

Sept

1st I say something horrible and whatshername and I don't talk for a month. (rejection #2)

October.
I decide I have to "fix" things with her and begin to. I discover binaural beats, which help to alter brainwaves, promising anxiety relief in the Delta binaural.

you can download some here, just BE WARNED do not use if you have epilepsy!

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Binaural_beats

http://www.officialidoser.webs.com/a-e.html

These helped the final leg of my journey.

November-December

I was trying to win her so much and was feeling absolutely miserable for most of both of them.(rejection #3) Then with a POP. I just don't care any more. It feels great, like a weight has been lifted.

2009 and beyond...

Now because of all the multiple methods I have used, I say that my battle with LS is mostly over, or at lest reached the turning point.

My main issues holding me back are
1. Job
2. Transportation

So 2009 I shall be dedicated to fixing these things and then on LS.

EDITS GO HERE ->> AKA NEW YEARS RESOLUTIONS (I wanted to make sure the post was saved.

Beginning of 2008, I kept reading into mainstream articles about "what is a real man," "what happens when you're bachelor for too long," and other crap articles.

Then I begin to look up the possibility that I may have Social Anxiety Disorder so I start looking up on Wikipedia about it. I come across the term "love-shyness," read the symptoms, and say "yup! this is it!" I lurk around the forum, then sign up originally as J. Crueller but decide I want a much colder name and don't want to be recognized if someone I know comes on this site so I came up with Cold Heart after a song I was writing instead.

I start posting.

I was trying a girl I approached randomly over her LG Voyager phone and thought I was going somewhere with it. I quickly realized it was going nowhere so I said "fuck it all!" This is where I raised the white flag.

Then I continue posting

And posting...

And posting...

And posting some more...

Slowly but surely bringing subconscious fears to surface for the first time in a very long time.

June 4th, 2008: I got rid of my second car because I could no longer afford repairs on it anymore.

August 8th, 2008: I hit my 1,000th post, exactly 7 months after I registered and started posting on this forum.

September 21, 2008: I go to my first concert in my life with my friends. I just had to mention that one!

November 10, 2008: I finally put my foot down on my boss and quit my job for over 3.75 years... this time FOR GOOD!!!

November 24, 2008: I finally started going to tech school and currently pursuing a career in automotive technology. It's about FUCKING time!

Cold Heart username temporarily goes down because I tried to change the email. I had a chance to leave the forum but instead, I start using my other username (J. Crueller) in lieu of Cold Heart. Proof I am addicted to this forum. Also my ever increasing post count proves it. I am over 11% of total posts.

Today: Just live life like any other day. At midnight whip out the bowl of grapes and champagne with my mom and bro (he'll probably just eat the grapes since he hates alcohol). Celebrate the New Year as a family and just family for the first time in a long time.

Bottom line: I only tried one girl this year and didn't put much effort into it either so her forsaking of me was quick and painless to get over. I've declared that I am sick and tired of bullshit and I've happily become complacent since discovery of this condition and venting out.

My idea of recovery is to do away with the notion of "love" and "real relationships" I grew up believing in as much as possible. Get it through to my head that I am indeed better off single.

EDIT: 2009 is here. Focus on my studies and work towards a decent career as an Automotive Technician.

December 2007, I quit my crappy Wal-Mart job, and moved out of my apt. due to my roommate leaving the US for a girl. I move back home and realize that it is actually more difficult for me now.

In March, a girl asks me to join her at two events, but being too afraid, I declined. I also went to see Obama that month and was in touch with several friends.

In April, I found a new job as an office admin that is perfect for me right now. I'm surrounded by great new acquaintances. I'm feeling pretty good about turning my situation around.

The summer passes by with no occurrences. However, I'm realizing now that my mother and her debt is dragging me down. I need to get out of here.

In August, my dept. at work moves to a different part of the building. I notice an older woman who sits close by and start feeling attracted to her and think I may have a chance. I didn't even say a word to her for a month.

On Oct. 13th, I decided to go for it and ask her out. I was rejected for the first time. It was probably a mistake, but I learned from it. That's what risks are.

Fall passes by with not much news. I'm doing better financially, however, my mother once again drags me back down due to debt.

It's winter now, and I sort of have a potential prospect, but I don't see her around work very often. I don't plan on asking anyone out again until I have my own apt. and probably a new car, which will probably be late next year. If I feel courageous enough before then, though, I will ask her out.

Midnight just passed as I've typed this into 2009. I will be positive about this year, and perhaps I won't be typing on this forum at midnight 2010.

I'm going for the 5,000 post mark in 2009!

discoveries I made since finding out about LS and etc:

-I finally accept that I have SAD and started therapy in Sept and joined a support group and reading self help books
-Thinking/doing things to end the dormant lifestyle and try to stop waiting for Cinderella to fall from the sky, I already gotten 3 freebies I don't think I'm getting anymore.
-trying to chagne my diet to include more fruits/vegetables
-Started taking St John's Wort regularly in Dec and I think is having an effect
-And been reading, reading and posting away on this forum and the other one(ducks) and hopefully will be prepared when the next girl comes along with all the advice I gotten

Happy New Year.